Saturday, March 31, 2012

Inner Dialogue

Me (two weeks ago): "Joe, I started my 100 Miles in 100 Days goal again.  And I'm already ahead of the game!  First day and I've already walked two miles!"

Me (two days ago): "Oh my God, Joe, I'm two weeks behind already.  I haven't been back to the gym since that first day.  What am I going to do?"

My Inner Dialogue (in the two seconds it took Joe to answer the above question): Oh God, you are so far behind.  What were you thinking starting this up again?  Setting yourself up for failure once again, yep.  And you've got so much left to do this school year - your quilt, getting the five-year-olds ready for the junior class - when are you going to find time to go to the gym?  You haven't gotten up early to workout since the time change.  There's always an excuse, isn't there?  The time change, then your allergies were kicking up, then you had that busy day when you were up late the night before so you let yourself sleep in the next morning.  And you've just thrown away all these beautiful warm days where you could have been walking around outside instead of being in a stuffy gym.  Always an excuse.  Always failing.  You know, I'm sure hardly anyone saw that little ticker on the side of your blog.  Probably no one would notice if you changed it and started over with the 100 miles in 100 days thing.  Or better yet, just take it down completely.  You're always putting too much pressure on yourself.  Maybe the best thing to do would be to just take it down and move on.  Sure, you'll know you failed, but whatever, at least you won't look foolish.

Source

Joe: "You're going to get your butt in the gym and make up for lost time." (Note: this was said in a supportive way, and not the least bit critically)

Me: "Oh."

Here's hoping that one day my inner dialogue will be that concise.

2 comments:

  1. Okay, not sure this is helpful motivation - different things work for different people - but I'm a morning exerciser (and have been for years), but still have the worse time with getting out of bed. Your Inner Dialogue? I play that to myself when my alarm goes off at 545am - it's the best way I know how to get myself out of bed. I think about how bad and guilty I'll feel, all day long, if I don't just shut it and get up. ALSO - I think about how good and accomplished I'll feel afterward. Occasionally, I do turn off my alarm and go back to sleep, and then DO spend the day lamenting about how badly I feel about myself. It's great motivation... I'll also say that I don't do this every day; I get up early 3-4 a few times a week, so I can also remember that I'll be able to sleep in again soon. Not sure this is helpful, but wanted to pass along, just in case!

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  2. You can do it! I'm gonna keep checkin' in on you! :)

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