Today I didn't eat any Nutella

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Yesterday, I figured out how to borrow audiobooks from the local library and transfer them to my iPod.

I've been entirely antisocial ever since.

I'm currently listening to The Amen Solution by Dr. Daniel G. Amen.  Long story short, it's basically a conglomeration of everything my research/intuition/therapist has been telling me over the past ten years.

The best part is, it's re-ignited my desire to get healthy.

I can't even begin to outline the advice this book gives.  Supplements.  Food addiction.  Visceral fat.  And brain scans.  Oh, how Dr. Amen adores brain scans.  It's a great premise, though, especially for an intellectually-minded brainiac like myself.

I'm about a third of the way through now (a big apology goes out to my office mate, who had to either painfully endure or gratefully rejoice - depending on how you look at it - the sudden silence coming from my desk as I listened to my book), and I feel stronger.

This is what I've been working on.  This is what getting healthy means to me.  Reading.  Learning.  Trying.  Growing.

I woke up early this morning and went for a forty minute walk.

I passed by the candy bowl a few dozen times today, and I didn't eat any.

I left the jar of Nutella sitting undisturbed on the top shelf of the pantry, despite the gnawing sensation in the back of my brain and the simultaneous stretching and wringing of my hands just to give them something to do.

That, my friends, is progress.  And after months and months of feeling defeated, a little progress feels really, really good.